One day at a time.

Thursday night was the night Jorge found out if he got to keep his job here...

He doesn't.

When moment I read his text the tears started. And kept going throughout the night. I was sad for him and for us. I guess I thought this meant he was immediately going home to his family in Mexico. It made me super sad.

I got up the next day and had to pull a double. I had to go into work knowing that he would not be by my side, telling me how to cut my veggies or clean a pot or how I should be careful carrying hot pans. I guess I was having my own, selfish little pity party. I was walking around as though the man had died.

NEWS FLASH: He is NOT dead.

However, I just insisted on being a sad, mopey, person all day. I was up cooking mushrooms off and Little Jared came over and asked me what was wrong. He was like, "are you tired?"
"No."
"Are you sick?"
"No."
Finally, Nico interrupted him and said, "she is sad." He then turned to me and said, "I am sad too. I miss my friend." For those of you who do not know, which is everyone, Nico is Jorge's bestie. Tighter then a fat kid in spandex. Anyway, that set me off. I started tearing up over the grill and had to go pull myself together.

It was just a rough day all around, on line, prep, just everything, so when I got outside on break I had to put in a very wet phone call to my kindred spirit. It helped and I finally pulled myself together.

That night when I got back to work it got better, working with good people makes all the difference in the world. I finally finished around 11 pm, put a text into Jorge, picked him up and braced myself. He got into the truck and told me Nico and the little guy told him I was crying at work. He said, "Honey, why are you sad? you didn't lose your job and you have friends and family, and I am not dead. STOP, crying. You are moving in three months anyway."

He is right. This is not the end of the world and I never stopped to think how all this would make him feel. He not only has lost his job but he has me telling him how sad I am, but also has Nico and Little guy telling him how sad they are. It is not good for him. I should be supporting him and not throwing the world's biggest pity party.

So done thinking about myself...for now.

Feeling inspired and most likely will do a little painting for my honey.

Also getting my paperwork in order for my passport. Long time coming.

Alright off to bed, 5 am comes pretty early for truck.

love, B