Laying under the stars...

is where I would rather be. I hate the neighbors have already turned on their AC.

I thought I would start dog sitting tonight and Linda surprised me with a phone call saying it starts tomorrow. Just fine with me.

Haven't talked to Jorge in a couple of days. I am concerned he is upset at me for not calling him yesterday on my day off. I just had lots going on. I tried to call tonight and it went straight to voicemail. I suppose he is working and will try again tomorrow. Whatever.

Had a little talk with Nico today out in the parking lot. He thinks I am crazy and he is concerned for me. It is a bit unsettling. I trust him and when he says something is shaddy....not sure?

I think I want to switch birth controls. Just to the generic version of Portia I think. I was on it for the last two months and seemed to be doing better, less moody and emotional on it then with Portia...shoulder shrug...I will talk to Dillons Pharmacy next month. I think Portia just makes me not a pleasant person to be around. Cranky bitch is more like it!

Kim told me she talked to my cousin Michelle yesterday and says her mom, Aunt Ann, is just tickled pink at the thought of having me as a roommate. I think it will be so good for me. I am looking for a new chapter in my life. I am counting down the days I can leave Longhorn's and Manhattan in general. I am just ready to close the book on this one.

So the kitchen is now being run by Marty. the 50-something, old man manager with dentures and chew occasionally in and out of his mouth. Bleh. This is how I feel about it. Marty is a nice guy, good ole Georgia boy, but sometimes the comments he makes to me...

to put it nicely, it makes my hairs on the back of my neck stand up and my skin crawl.

He just called my name as I was walking by and I turned and said, "Yes Marty?"
"Bridget, you want to get married?" a bit confused I just stood and looked dumbfoundedly at him.
I was like"Ummm.....???"
"Well you see Bridget, I am looking for my third wife and I just thought?"
"Ummmmm........???"
"Just thought you would be a good one."
"Marty take 25 and add another 20 years too it and then look for a woman your own age."
"nah, I like them young....and trainable."
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........give it some time to all sink in. Manager, marriage, younger women, dentures....trainable
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EWWWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwWWWWWWWwwaWWWWwww!

Eww

Bleh, just threw up in my mouth a little.

Then Ben just had to pipe up with, "She only likes it if she can put a sombrero on him." Uhhh, thanks Ben.

Things that just make you want to go Blaeh :S

On a different note, can we just talk about the new dishwashers smile.Marcos :) when he smiles it is quite literally from ear to ear and with his whole face. I love smiley eyes and he is definitely a kindred spirit in that sense. It is hard to be upset at work when I work with him.

Can't wait to get into the hot tub tomorrow night....


mmmmm....hot tub.

Oh man, I should set the alarms and get some shut eye, 5 am is going to be awfully early.

Love  you, B

Hardy Plants, Resumes, and Priorities

Old spice commercials are oddly funny and sometimes just odd.

I killed the replacement flower for Jorge's valentine flower that he gave me. I like watering my plants. I just need hardy plants that can handle me not that need to be handled. 

I am brushing up my resume. Going to go after the lunch rush to Coco Bolos, Houlihans, and a few more places. I also want to go talk to Olive Garden about when I transfer to AZ. 

Did you know if you apply and get a job at Target you will have to take a pee test? I hardly drink and never do drugs but I have no desire to pee in a cup...messy business. Not appealing.

I don't think I am going to Mexico in July, it might be August. We both are a little downhearted about it. He has caught a cold. I wish I was there to take care of him. Rub vicks on his chest and make him hot tea. He is so close to having enough money to open his restaurant He is 2,000 MXN pesos short, or 200 American dollars. I am not sure what this means for us but it makes me happy he is close to his dream. He talked about it a lot when we were together. He would run a good clean business. Maybe it could expand to the US? Who knows where things will lead?

I decided not to go home for Miss Michael's Birthday party. I feel like the worst aunt in the world, but talked to Thomas this morning and made me feel a bit better about it. 

Dog sitting this next week. Not looking forward to the gas I will us getting to and from work but the hot tub will be nice. 

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Priorities, funny how they change over the course of your life. How friends come and go. I feel like my priorities have changed rapidly back and here and there over the last year. Its been a bit of a roller coaster, mind fuck and an emotional mess. It's just funny, I go to college and made ''NEW" friends, they say those are the friends you keep for life; however, it's interesting to see how many of them I have kept. 

Idk, I see that R and V are having a weekend together. I honestly haven't talked to either, like really talked to them in months. They are in cahoots, as my father would say. I know Vicky has been on a diet and weight loss regime but she hasn't talked to me about it. Which is fine I know Rhona and her have been keeping super tight, probably since I have introduced a new priority into my life, Jorge. It's fine...well it bothers me a little or otherwise I wouldn't be talking about it. They say they are friends for life, ride or die...just funny how priorities change. 

I have a certain set of girls that I could call without seeing or talking too in months, and yet we could pick right back up where we left off, like not a day has gone by. Its perfect. We all get that things are going on in each others lives and yet we know if we really need one another we are there for each other. Life one drunken night when lack of sleep, food and too much drink lead to a little vomit and utter emotional break down outside of a saloon and my real girls got me back to my house and into my bed. Love them. 

If you would have asked me this time last year where I saw myself in a year,  I would have said, I will be accepted in a graduate program, still single, far from wanting kids, not working for Darden anymore....Ha, how life has changed. 

Life has changed. 

People come and go, but they are in your life for a reason, some longer than others. Some to teach you lessons you otherwise might not have learned. 

Love, B

Happy 5th Birthday to Miss Michael Rose Lee

Happy 1st Birthday to Mr Logan Camille Brandt

Give yourself a pat on the back.

I thought I wanted to blog, now I am unsure. 

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I am going to send up a prayer for those in Oklahoma and Texas affected by the tornados that have ripped through there the last couple of days. It makes you stop take another look at your life, be thankful and tell those you love you love them.  

My heart hurts. I have cried too much in the last few days. Work has been absolutely horrible. Well the work is the same, but the some of the people who work there or did work there are lazy, lazy, lazy. It drives me nuts. We had too more call it quits in the last week. That brings the count to eleven, in the kitchen alone, in the last few months since our new GM started. High turnover rates, she likes to blame it on being a college town; however, only one of the eleven who quit in the kitchen were in school. Crazy how its because we are in a college town, huh? 

I seriously do not get it. I feel if I was in a management position, I would be everywhere, non stop. I would be setting up the line, constantly restocking, seeing what my kitchen needed to succeed on a busy night. I would be helping the servers run food, grab extra drinks, stock plates, etc..."Oh you need salad prepared on the fly, ok uno momento!" "Hey, Juan, let me wash dishes for awhile while you catch." "Oh hey, Heather can I fold some napkins for you while you greet your new table?" "Hey Hunter, you stay up here I will go do the restroom check."  

Come on sweet cheeks, you must not tell lies, like, "Oh hey Bridget, I will be on the line all night with you!" then only show up twice. Because twice you were in my way and I seriously don't have time for you or any of it. Get out the way little girl. Just cause you in a longhorn shirt and hat don't mean shit to me. Dismiss yourself. 

Go have someone else help you pat yourself on the back. I don't have enough hands or time to stop and stroke your ego. 

Jorge made me promise to go talk to Olive Garden. 

Ben, is back in black. Good old Benjamin, how I missed your snarky comments and the Miss Bridge before you ask me questions. 

Today I got up curled my hairs, put on some makeup and actually got dressed in something other than black work clothes. It was lovely and I felt lovely and just beautiful. I had a list of things to do so I got Kim up from her nap and drug her around town. One of my stops was La Estrellas, Mexican Tienda. I walked in and The man behind the counter was bagging up items but stopped and just stared. I looked at the other customers and back at him, everyone was staring. Maybe Gringas don't usually just wander in. I finally said Hola, I need one phone card and got out my Homies card and showed it to him. He finally snapped out of it and asked me some questions about which card I wanted. I asked if he ran credit cards, he did, so I paid the man. He was examining my debit card with such seriousness, I asked if he needed to see my ID. He said no but looked up as he was handing it back. "Your name is Bridget?" Uhh, Yes. "It's a beautiful name." Thank you. He was handing me the slip to sign, I made eye contact as usual, his hand lingered on the slip and pen as I was trying to take it from him he said "Bridget, you have the most beautiful eyes." Uhhh, gracias. I handed the slip back and bid him a buenas tardes. It makes a girl feel good to be noticed. No one has mentioned my eyes since Jorge was here to tell me. They are my one of my most favorite features about myself, so it is always extra nice when someone tells me how pretty they are. I guess I will pat myself on the back, GO ME and my SPECIAL EYES! 

Ok, love you all, 

good night <3 b="" font="">

Afternoon Coffee.

I don't want to think about it,
I don't want to talk about it...
I am so confused about it.

Thanks JT, that is sort of how I feel about it.

Yesterday was spent in Topeka with my friend Megs. I tried Indian food for the first time. I was indifferent to it, neither liked nor disliked it. I really wanted Vietnamese, however, it is always good to try new things.

Topeka's Salvation Army is disappointing  I felt like we walked into a time warp, I guess all thrift stores are like that but I just expected more I suppose.

TJ Max was just as disappointing when it came to clothes. I only found a pair of sandals, some conditioner  spices and coffee. 80% of what I got was edible.

A bit underwhelming for a shopping trip, oh well (insert shoulder shrug.) I was feeling big and bloated and a bit bloody :S

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Last week, was filled with lots of work, 60 hrs and 5 min worth. It was a LONG week. Everyone had a long week.

Nico got into a car accident last Sunday night. He was fine other than bruises and some swelling. He couldn't work till Thursday so we were a bit short staffed in the prep area.

Derek, Sho, Alex, and Marcus had quite the time too. It was hard on us all.

I can't wait till Katie goes back up front or out the door. She is not a very good team player.

I learned something about myself last week when I was training one new utility/dish guy, Juan, he is from Acapulco. He used to work at Olive Garden, speaks a very little english, and asked if I had a novio, boyfriend.
I said, "yes, he is in Mexico."
He said, "oh, for school."
"Ha, no."
"Oh, working?"
"Si"
"He American right?"
"no."
"He's Mexicano?"
"si."
"He school or no school?"
"No school."
"He restaraunt o lawn?"
"restaurant."
He stopped dusting and just looked me over and said, "lo que una mujer hermosa (what a beautiful woman)."

I told him he used to work at Olive garden and he knew who Jorge was, he then asked when he was coming back..."no se (I don't know)."

Working with Juan, struggling to understand yet learning so much from each other. It was fulfilling. I felt like I could climb mount everest after I got done working with him. It was so much fun showing him how things worked and went. I think dad was right when he said I always wanted to be a teacher. But I don't want to teach people who take learning for granted. I think, I want to teach and learn from people who have been passed over and dismissed. Juan is not stupid or slow, he just doesn't speak very much English. NBD, patience is key, as well as, persistence, and being willing to let yourself make mistakes and sound like a fool while butchering their language. It was fun. It has been awhile since I have had fun at work.

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These last couple of days I have been thinking about my future and what it holds and what I want it to hold. I feel like I need to have a talk with Jorge. I am not sure what the future holds, but what I do know is that, I want him in it. I want to have a family. I want a kiss good morning and a kiss goodnight. I want to live and laugh, cook and get messy. I want to fight and make up. I want to smile and catch the tears as they fall with my hand. I want to be there for successes and failures. I want to learn something new everyday. I want to paint. I want to just live and worrying about all the future mess is not helping me live and be happy today. So dismiss yourself, ugly thoughts.

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I work at 4:30 so I am going to go get ready. I am going to text my honey and tell him I love him, just like I am going to tell you all, SMILE because I LOVE YOU TOO :)


-B

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Needed some retail therapy. So, I walked around the mall, thought about swimsuits or finding cute tops, but alas ended up at target and purchased Silver Lining Playlist and Le Miserables.

I am so glad I purchased both. I am now watching Le Mis as I write this blog. Can someone get Ann and Hugh some pancakes, or Lee roast beef and potatoes. Sheesh, too skinny, I could snap them like a chicken!

Sent some selfies to my honey. Not going to lie, I love doing this. You have to do what you have to do to keep the fire kindled. ;-)

I traded Nico shifts so he could have the Monday off. It would be that Marty would schedule our only Hispanic the morning after Cinco de Mayo. He seemed appreciative. However, I think he is a bit disappointed in the fact I don't know more about Jorge's life in Mexico. He tells me a little about work and family but the conversation consists mostly of sweet nothings. Lo siento mi amigo, maybe you should make time to call your friend yourself. I am not a good information source :S

11:11 make a wish

Talked to my Aunt Ann yesterday evening. I think it is pretty settled. If I don't wish to transfer to Longhorn in Phoenix, AZ, I can come test the waters and look for a job while living with her down in Sierra Vista. Lots of restaurants around her and good art! So I need to get my 't's' crossed and 'i's' dotted before July.

Counting down the days, not for the move but for other things and other people moving on out of my life for good. can't wait.

I was pretty bad this last week about running. Tomorrow morning is a new day!

Love, B